Turn your thoughts around – easy to say but a lot harder to do.
I remember oh too well the dense fog of my grief over the death of my daughter. The darkness surrounded me and forced me under time and time again. In the actual moment of darkness I felt I couldn’t go on. Suicide wasn’t an option.
– If you’re thinking suicide is an option for you – get yourself to a Dr. NOW……You need not live in such terrible darkness. It’s OK to take medication to get yourself through. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This pain will ease and you will come out stronger and more able to produce awesomeness in the Universe. We need you.
Many many times my desperate cries for help were heard by God. He lifted me out of the darkness and out of the hole of despair. He wrapped me in his loving embrace and brought me back to life one breath at a time.
It has taken me many years to arrive where I am today – at a place where all I’ve learned I am able to share with those walking the path behind me.
This is not something I chose for myself but I made the choice to become better not bitter. I made the choice to leave a lasting legacy of good in my life because my daughter lived and died and that mattered.
I’ve learned it’s what you feed yourself physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually that brings you through to a place of empowerment and enlightenment.
I became a guru of self-help books – books on the workings of the Universe, study, focus, prayer and meditation. I had a good friend who was older, more mature and truly a woman of God.
Through her I was introduced to a personal relationship with the God who created me and then to the Bible. This wasn’t easy but I was willing to do whatever it took to heal.
I had a family who relied on me and I needed to grow through the agony to help them and others. I want to tell you – if I can – you can. ‘’With God All things are possible’’.
I had to turn my thoughts around. I had to force the negative thoughts out and to direct my attitudes to gratitude. I used to tell my husband ‘’You want to change your life – change your attitude’’. God meets us where we’re at. I had to bloom where I was planted. I had to focus on what I had and not on what I didn’t have. *1 Peter 2:24 ‘’By Jesus Stripes I am healed *Exodus 15:26 ‘’For I am the God who heals you. **James 5:15 ‘’The prayer of faith will save the sick.